My dear son
My dear son,
I have
received the card, greeting me on ‘Mother’s Day’. Beautifully printed on high
quality paper, the card contained a ready-made message full of emotions. On
looking at it, I remembered your childhood.
Then you
were studying in fourth standard of your primary education. Your class-teacher
had assigned you an essay on ‘my mother’, as your ‘home work’. On arriving
home, you had asked me, “What should I write, mom?” I had replied, “It is your
test, my dear. You should write whatever you can think of about your mother. If
I guide you in writing, the words would be mine, may be about my mother, not
yours.” You were not happy with my reply. You had walked away silently! But you
had written something and shown it to your teacher. When I met your
class-teacher in teachers’ room (I also worked as teacher in the same school),
she had told me, “Your son has written excellent essay on ‘mother’. You should
read it.” She had shown the essay to me. Reading it, I could not control my
emotions and I cried. I had taken that page from your class-teacher and
preserved it like a treasure. Even today, when I feel like being with you, I
open that paper, read and satisfy my emotions, motherly love. While reading it,
innocent face of a 9-10 years boy appears before my eyes!
You made
very bright career throughout; became engineer, got good job, married to a
beautiful woman and then migrated to USA for better job. I was happy
with your progress. However, I had become selfish and did not approve your decision
to go away to a foreign country. Your father was also not in favor of letting
you go away. But we did not reveal our displeasure and gladly bid you farewell.
“Birds
feed their young ones till they start flying. Once they are on their own, they leave
the nest. Our bird has also left the nest. We hope sometimes we get to see our
bird, when it comes flying this side, like a migratory bird.” Your father had
consoled me with these words, when I was crying, after returning from airport.
I saw the reality. So, mentally, we had written you off from our life.
Your
father was lucky to have his cremation and other rites done at your hands, when
he died after some time. You had come rushing when you got the news. I felt
good, but also thought it would have been better, if you could come with
family. I understand it was difficult because of hurry. While returning you had
invited me to USA .
And you had, after following necessary formalities of visa etc. called me
there.
You had
expected that I should teach ‘our culture’ (Indian) to your children, because
you thought it was better than the western culture. I could not do so. I could
not mould them into our culture. I had many limitations in that society and
environment. I myself felt difficult to get adjusted there. We had talked about
it, and you had appreciated my viewpoint. I had told you, “culture can not be
taught from outside. One is moulded into the culture in which he/she is living.
Surrounding society and situation has major roll to play in it. Moreover,
please do not make a mistake to believe that ‘our’ (eastern) culture is only a
good culture. Humanity, as it develops in one’s behavior is the only good
culture. All other virtues follow humanity.” You had not appreciated my point.
But the culture as I witnessed there confirmed my arguments. I remember one
incident distinctly.
We had
gone to a restaurant for dinner with your friends. One beautiful and smart girl
was serving our table. Her appearance, including outfit was not ‘cultured’
according our standards, as she was wearing short skirt, tight T shirt that
which we consider as ‘inapropriate’. You were all busy in talking and laughing
while eating. Because of my trembling fingures, a spoon fell down spraying some
soup on my clothes with it. Your wife had noticed it and saying ‘be careful,
mom’, she rejoined your talks. But the girl had rushed to me. She had removed
whatever had fallen on my clothes on a tissue and returning back, she had
helped me cleaning stains from my saree. On completion of dinner, you all had
got up quickly and started moving out. But I had trouble in getting up because
of my troubled knee. Without bothering about looking at what you had left as
‘tip’, the girl helped me in getting up and keeping one hand of mine on her shoulder,
she walked me several steps, like I used to help you walking when you learned
walking! When she was satisfied that I was able to walk, she had acknowledged
sense of thanks in my looks with a smile and returned to her work. Is this not
‘culture’?
I had
several other experiences of similar type. When we used to visit some friends
and relations, they called their kids from their rooms. They were telling them
‘please say ‘hi’ to uncle (or aunty.).’ The kids obeyed formally, without any
feeling or warmth on their face. When we were out in shopping malls or other
places and our eyes meet even strangers, they greeted us with a smile or ‘hi’.
I compared it with our tradition. We appear rude in this respect!
You were
surprised when, after several months, I told you “I wish to go back”. You had
asked me, “What will you do there?” I wanted to reply, “What am I doing here?”
but I could not. I had given you simple reply, “I am feeling home-sickness.”
You did not argue much and arranged for my return. When you both came on the
airport to bid me farewell, your eyes were filled with tears and they conveyed
your real feelings. I had returned to my nest, from yours.
Thereafter
you came here several times. I received you and your family like guests. Inside
me I desired that I prepare delicious meals for your children and feed them
with my own hands, like I used to do with you, thereby satisfying my emotions
as a loving grandmother. But you thought I am troubling myself. You thought you
should spare me from burden of extra work. So you connived some excuses and
most of times arranged eating outside. You took me with you for dinner or lunch
outside or while visiting friends or relations. When I was not with you, you
brought something for me. Whatever period you stayed here, you remained busy in
shopping, meeting people, travelling etc. You had no time at home sitting and
talking small things with me, so that my feelings and emotions are satisfied. I
craved for chatting with you and your family and talk about everything and
nothing, just to enjoy the time and be with you all for long. But you could not
give me chance for that. Your vacation ended soon, taking you back to your
nest.
On seeing
your card today, ‘Mother’s Day’, I felt happy thinking that you remember me. But
my son, (please do not take me wrong) instead of sending me such an expensive
and beautiful but formal card, if you had written a few words with your own
hands, I would have been more happy and touched. I have, however, still that
paper, on which you had written about your mother. I am opening it and reading
as if you have written it today, “My mom loves me very much. I do not like to
get up in the morning, but my mom lifts me up from bed to wake me up. I hold my
hands around her neck and kiss her. She forces me to brush and get ready. I
wish I get some tea with my mom-dad, but she pushes a bowl full of milk to me
and forces me to drink. But later she gives me some tea! Now I am grown up, but
still she comes to the bathroom to bathe me well. Then she helps me with my
school uniform. My mom also comes to the same school with me, but she gets
ready quickly. If more time is taken in feeding me breakfast, she hurries up
her breakfast to rush to school quickly. At night, she tells me tales of
fairies and sings songs to put me to sleep. My mom loves me a lot. My mom is
the best mom in the world!”
Bye son.
My love to you both and blessings for children.
Your Mom
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